Commander Zemil Vymes
Dec 3rd, 2003, 10:22:28 PM
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
And days of auld lang syne, my dear,
And days of auld lang syne.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pu'd the gowans fine.
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne,
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld ang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn,
From morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne.
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
Night watch was coming to an end.
Every aching bone in my body was tired, but I hadn't done a damn thing. This time of year, the streets should've been crawling with scum. Strangely, they weren't. I almost wished they did. It would give me a sense of vindication.
I shuffled into Yog's Bar & Grill, retiring my piece to the man at the door. He gave me a covert, empathetic look. I shrugged it off. No matter how much he might want to walk a mile in my shoes, I was the only one who knew that the soles had worn thin. I didn't need anyone's sympathy, and the road from anonymity to B was through empathy. No thanks.
I shrugged off my coat, damp from the earlier shower of the night. I stank like the street. That smell of speeder ozone and glitterstim smoke, mixed with sweat and the stink of regret. I wore it like fine cologne. Anything else was an unbecoming lie. I'd long-since convinced myself that I was comfortable with being a damned cynical fool. I hadn't lowered myself to sweeping that under the rug.
The burdens of my life sank me into my seat, and I nodded to the waitress across the room. We'd existed in this microcosm for years now. She kept the bad coffee, burnt toast, and runny eggs coming. I let her bum smokes off me and flattered her waning good looks. She treated me like a human being instead of a cop, and I tipped her well. It was my half hour of humanity, and I was an addict. Neither of us would ever make it out of life unscathed. We weren't going to be space commanders, or Jedi Knights. Everybody takes a stroll down a clean street and takes for granted that cleaning the crap off the pavement sometimes takes lives, and its not just the one's who get put six feet under. They can kill you with a cheap watch and a lousy pension, too.
"Mornin Zem." She'd dyed her hair...again.
"Mornin Louise." I nursed my coffee, easing my back against my seat, working out the tension.
"You havin a happy new year?" She asked.
I'd tried not to ask myself that.
"Yeah." I lied. So much for principle.
Somehow, I doubt she bought it. Something about waitressing was alot like being a cop. You cut through the flak and the red tape people always threw up as a front. You knew people. You made it your business to know people. A good waitress is never asked to refill coffee. A good cop is always one step ahead of a crook. Who was I fooling, when I insulted her intelligence? The look in my eyes, however, was begging her not to press the issue. Tonight, I wanted to drink my coffee, and eat my greasy food, safe and sound amongst the ignorant. I needed this.
God bless Louise. Maybe she could read more than I thought. She patted me on the shoulder, and gave it a squeeze.
"Happy New Year, Zem. You deserve it."
I looked up at her, with a thankful glimmer in my eye, and raised my cup of caf.
"You do too, Louise."
A wry, but feigned smile appeared on my face.
"Just keep the coffee coming."
She walked away, but tossed a one-liner back my way in response.
"Just keep tipping me." She didn't even bum a smoke off me this time.
I returned to the solace of my solitude and breakfast, eager to let the evening bleed into morning, so I could sleep again. Something masochistic in me stirred, however. I reached into my pocket, and pulled out my wallet.
On the audio system, an old New Years song began to play...a dirge for the ghosts of my past to rise out of the grave and haunt me. I flipped past the empty money pouch, and pulled out two weathered holo-flimsies.
My wife.
And my son.
"Happy New Year"
The words rolled, bitter off my tongue, as the floodgates of memory and recollection gave way.
And never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
And days of auld lang syne, my dear,
And days of auld lang syne.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?
We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pu'd the gowans fine.
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne,
We've wandered mony a weary foot,
Sin' auld ang syne.
We twa hae sported i' the burn,
From morning sun till dine,
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
Sin' auld lang syne, my dear,
Sin' auld lang syne.
But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin' auld lang syne.
And ther's a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie's a hand o' thine;
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.
Night watch was coming to an end.
Every aching bone in my body was tired, but I hadn't done a damn thing. This time of year, the streets should've been crawling with scum. Strangely, they weren't. I almost wished they did. It would give me a sense of vindication.
I shuffled into Yog's Bar & Grill, retiring my piece to the man at the door. He gave me a covert, empathetic look. I shrugged it off. No matter how much he might want to walk a mile in my shoes, I was the only one who knew that the soles had worn thin. I didn't need anyone's sympathy, and the road from anonymity to B was through empathy. No thanks.
I shrugged off my coat, damp from the earlier shower of the night. I stank like the street. That smell of speeder ozone and glitterstim smoke, mixed with sweat and the stink of regret. I wore it like fine cologne. Anything else was an unbecoming lie. I'd long-since convinced myself that I was comfortable with being a damned cynical fool. I hadn't lowered myself to sweeping that under the rug.
The burdens of my life sank me into my seat, and I nodded to the waitress across the room. We'd existed in this microcosm for years now. She kept the bad coffee, burnt toast, and runny eggs coming. I let her bum smokes off me and flattered her waning good looks. She treated me like a human being instead of a cop, and I tipped her well. It was my half hour of humanity, and I was an addict. Neither of us would ever make it out of life unscathed. We weren't going to be space commanders, or Jedi Knights. Everybody takes a stroll down a clean street and takes for granted that cleaning the crap off the pavement sometimes takes lives, and its not just the one's who get put six feet under. They can kill you with a cheap watch and a lousy pension, too.
"Mornin Zem." She'd dyed her hair...again.
"Mornin Louise." I nursed my coffee, easing my back against my seat, working out the tension.
"You havin a happy new year?" She asked.
I'd tried not to ask myself that.
"Yeah." I lied. So much for principle.
Somehow, I doubt she bought it. Something about waitressing was alot like being a cop. You cut through the flak and the red tape people always threw up as a front. You knew people. You made it your business to know people. A good waitress is never asked to refill coffee. A good cop is always one step ahead of a crook. Who was I fooling, when I insulted her intelligence? The look in my eyes, however, was begging her not to press the issue. Tonight, I wanted to drink my coffee, and eat my greasy food, safe and sound amongst the ignorant. I needed this.
God bless Louise. Maybe she could read more than I thought. She patted me on the shoulder, and gave it a squeeze.
"Happy New Year, Zem. You deserve it."
I looked up at her, with a thankful glimmer in my eye, and raised my cup of caf.
"You do too, Louise."
A wry, but feigned smile appeared on my face.
"Just keep the coffee coming."
She walked away, but tossed a one-liner back my way in response.
"Just keep tipping me." She didn't even bum a smoke off me this time.
I returned to the solace of my solitude and breakfast, eager to let the evening bleed into morning, so I could sleep again. Something masochistic in me stirred, however. I reached into my pocket, and pulled out my wallet.
On the audio system, an old New Years song began to play...a dirge for the ghosts of my past to rise out of the grave and haunt me. I flipped past the empty money pouch, and pulled out two weathered holo-flimsies.
My wife.
And my son.
"Happy New Year"
The words rolled, bitter off my tongue, as the floodgates of memory and recollection gave way.