Azhure Darkstone
Oct 16th, 2003, 08:54:05 PM
I don’t know how long I’ve now been at SWFans, first as SapphireDragoness then as Saharia, Azhure Darkstone and Nieheine and lets not forget a name I used only once for a prank of some sort, AssasinateItalaMarzullo – and it still exists lol. I guess I’ve never been a strong personality who absolutely has to be in every single thread on the board nor has my characters ever been huge socialisers and thus it has led to a feeling of perhaps not feeling a part of the community because I’ve never had the time (and my mother has been very strict about how many hours I use the media) to get fully into it. The early days was far more involving but now I’m feeling out of place with GJO and SWFans in general – one of the reasons I left GJO as Saphire a few years ago before I re-entered the order as Azhure. I personally feel left out (and that sounds like whining but I can’t word it any other way and the leaving out isn’t anyone’s fault but mine so don’t get the wrong impression) and in the past years I have tried to become a stronger member OOC and IC but it hasn’t really worked out all that well.
I am considering leaving SWFans (IC only and may be around now and then in OOC) for a month or so to think about permanently leaving or staying, but as SWFans is a big part of my leisure life it’s a big step and I don’t know if I could stay away fro one month – we’ll see how this break goes
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The only threads I will stay on in this month is to finish the Matthias Darkstone thread and to continue training for both characters – and I apologise to everyone else not in those two categories who will be effected. I have been thinking about this action for a while but have never done anything about it but I guess its now or never, and probably is a healthy decision considering exams are coming up. – Perfect timing huh?
This is not on account of “I hate SWFans”. On the contrary I adore this place. This place has given my imagination a lot of growth and development, as well as my writing skills. My characters have helped solve some real life problems and helped me deal with them better. There are a few people on this board who I love (big huggles to you all) and some I like as friends, some I’ve known by name for a long time but haven’t really gotten to know well and many I don’t know but would probably be honoured to know as well. This place is very special, even if it is only electronic :p and IF I do decide to leave I won’t forget it easily.
I have a lot of feelings and things in life to figure out and a few things to think about – in real life and at SWFans. I’m leaving school this year and next year is a whole new ball game – and I thinks it’s time I do something about certain personal relationships in my life that I’ve kept in the closet for too long.
So, in conclusion, I will be here OOC and for the Matthias Thread and training, but I won’t be around very often – maybe even less than I am now (time will tell) so to Siobhan, Navaria and Ambrose – please be patient with me. For the rest – thank-you for all that you’ve given to me thus far.
I am considering leaving SWFans (IC only and may be around now and then in OOC) for a month or so to think about permanently leaving or staying, but as SWFans is a big part of my leisure life it’s a big step and I don’t know if I could stay away fro one month – we’ll see how this break goes
.
The only threads I will stay on in this month is to finish the Matthias Darkstone thread and to continue training for both characters – and I apologise to everyone else not in those two categories who will be effected. I have been thinking about this action for a while but have never done anything about it but I guess its now or never, and probably is a healthy decision considering exams are coming up. – Perfect timing huh?
This is not on account of “I hate SWFans”. On the contrary I adore this place. This place has given my imagination a lot of growth and development, as well as my writing skills. My characters have helped solve some real life problems and helped me deal with them better. There are a few people on this board who I love (big huggles to you all) and some I like as friends, some I’ve known by name for a long time but haven’t really gotten to know well and many I don’t know but would probably be honoured to know as well. This place is very special, even if it is only electronic :p and IF I do decide to leave I won’t forget it easily.
I have a lot of feelings and things in life to figure out and a few things to think about – in real life and at SWFans. I’m leaving school this year and next year is a whole new ball game – and I thinks it’s time I do something about certain personal relationships in my life that I’ve kept in the closet for too long.
So, in conclusion, I will be here OOC and for the Matthias Thread and training, but I won’t be around very often – maybe even less than I am now (time will tell) so to Siobhan, Navaria and Ambrose – please be patient with me. For the rest – thank-you for all that you’ve given to me thus far.