Sanis Prent
Apr 10th, 2003, 10:56:12 PM
Found it in the bargain bin DVD pile, and brought it home. DeNiro, Walken...can't lose.
I haven't cried this hard in a long time. Its made me think about the consequences of a decision I've made to join the reserves. The circle of friends in that movie are eerily similar to mine, and I've thought about my decision for a long time. I know I'm not afraid of getting killed. I'm so scared of not being me, though. I'm scared that my friends and family wouldn't be able to relate to me like they used to. Experiencing a friend of mine getting murdered turned my world upside down, and marked a lot of changes in my life. I don't know if I recovered, and moved past it, or if that changed me. If I get called up, and get into something bad, will I shrug that off, or will that derail me?
That scares me so much.
I haven't cried this hard in a long time. Its made me think about the consequences of a decision I've made to join the reserves. The circle of friends in that movie are eerily similar to mine, and I've thought about my decision for a long time. I know I'm not afraid of getting killed. I'm so scared of not being me, though. I'm scared that my friends and family wouldn't be able to relate to me like they used to. Experiencing a friend of mine getting murdered turned my world upside down, and marked a lot of changes in my life. I don't know if I recovered, and moved past it, or if that changed me. If I get called up, and get into something bad, will I shrug that off, or will that derail me?
That scares me so much.