Apologies (all read please)

[Xazor]

I just want to apologize to everyone that I am in RPs with. If my posts are not as good of quality as I have made in the past.....or I have not been posting much, I am sorry. On Monday a good friend of mine passed away due to complicatons from lukemia. I just haven't felt to much in the mood for fun.....but I've been trying. Just thought I'd let ya'll know......thanks.....

Xaz'

[Jake Talen]

I'm sorry to hear that. My little cousin had leukemia and passed away last year so I know how you feel. It's a horrible disease. I hope you're okay<img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Marcus QDunn]

:(


remeber the first rule of roleplaying Xazor - Real Life always comes first. My heart and prayers are offered up to you and your friend's family.

[Sage Hazzard]

My aunt went the same way. Sorry. :(

RL comes before this make believe nonsense. This is just fun and games, not the real world.

[Helenias QDunn]

Oh Xazor, I'm so sorry to hear that. Like Mark, my prayers to you and the family of your friend

[Vega Van Derveld]

Take as much time away from the RP as you need, we all know how upset you must be feeling so it's no big worry.

[Master Yoghurt]

Sorry to hear that Xazor. :( Do not worry, there is no need to aplogise or explain. It is perfectly understandable you are not in the mood for posting much when something like that happens. In fact, people are absent from the forums for far less than that. Mark is right; real life is most important. Please, take whatever the time away from roleplaying you feel you need. After all, roleplaying should be about relieving from stress, not adding to it.

Our heart and prayers go to you and the family of your friend.

[Dalethria Mal Pannis]

Stuff like that hits home for me as well. I understand Xazor and you should take the time you need and take care of yourself.

[C4 sith hunter]

[Edited Out Entirely by: Leia]

That was truly disrespectful on your part and therefore I am editing out your entire post and advertism. I would normally delete it completely..but I wanted you to know what you did was wrong.

Leia ~ an Admin at GJO


BTW..Xazor: I am truly sorry to hear the bad news. :( My prayers are with you and her family.

[Salem Ave]

Agreed. Post was edited entirely out!!.

I find that post utterly offensive and insensitive.

[Xazor]

Thanks everyone.....I am feeling better today than I was yesterday or Monday. I am just learning to take it a day at a time and to let insults and such insensitivities go....that is not what matters in life. All of the small things just don't matter anymore.....

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers everyone.....my heart goes out to his family as well and they have been truly blessed by all of the support they have recieved from everyone....even those they do not know. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> I am back to the world of RPing and am doing my best.....

[Azhure Darkstone]

my prayers are with you too, though its a bit late to say it.
When you love someone they'll always be in your heart.

[Vonta and R5]

My condolences on your lose sorry about C4 he actually did think that that would help. Force Sects needs masters and I do not want to lose a prospective one over such an event.

Our prayers go out to you and your friend.

[Vonta and R5]

My condolences on your lose sorry about C4 he actually did think that that would help. Force Sects needs masters and I do not want to lose a prospective one over such an event.
The post has been deleted from the Force Sects board as a show of apology.

Our prayers go out to you and your friend.

[Xazor]

Thank you Vonta. Yes, I will be back to the Forcesect boards...don't worry. I just have to find someone willing to train in the Aiki ways. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers...I truly have been uplifted by them. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> I am feeling better today...his funeral is tomorrow and I am attending with a ton of other friends. I think it will be a good time to mourn..but remember his great life. Thank you again so much! <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Aura Allei]

Sorry for the late reply Xazor, as I dont view the OOC threads over here much. Mere words cannot heal what tragedy has transpired. Try to stay strong for not only yourself, but your friend's family.

RPG seems to be the antithesis of real life's concerns. It comprises of its own society and ethics. It can devour ones own life. This is why I havent been rping as much. I dont want to loose track of what life is and should really be about, 'living' not RPG. Dont feel forced to rp to keep up with your character, it will only add to the pain. I tried to rp after a loss. The two do not mix well.

My thoughts go with you in your grief. Man can build unyielding weapons of destruction, yet so many areas go unexplored, like the discovery of cures to common diseases. I hope you find support in knowing others do care, and are here for you if you wish to voice your feelings on your loss.

[Xazor]

Thanks Aura <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> Well........the funeral was today and it was nice. I got to see him.....and I cried. I cried the whole time actually. His parents were strong for everyone though....they were wonderful. I got a major head ache from crying for like, three hours straight.

I feel almost relieved that it is over though. I feel good knowing that he does not have to suffer with the treatments and needles being stuck in him, and the sickness brought on by the Chemo. I am reassured in my faith......I am a Christian and he was too......so it makes me feel good to know that I'll see him again someday........ <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

Thank you everyone for all of your thoughts and prayers.....they have truly helped during this rough time. And as far as RPing......I know I should put life before it....and I do.....but it has become something I do, and I feel badly for neglecting it. But, I must remember the golden rule and live by it anyway........I have been posting some......not major posts or anything. Just to let people know I am still alive and making it...

[Lady DeVille]

Oh, Xazor, so sorry to hear about what happened, but glad to hear that he was a Christian. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> Wonderful news, even in a bad time. Just think, I'll get to see you both some day! *hug* My prayers are with you.

[Xazor]

*huggles* to you to LD. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> Yes......that'll be such a cool thing to see him again....and then meet you and Marcus and Helenias and all the other Christian SW peeps.....wow, we will have such a good time! <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> We'll be the crazy ones...... ;)

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers...... <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> I truly appreciate it....

[Marcus QDunn]

Meeting Xazor and Deville in Heaven.....

That's something to look forward to <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Xazor]

Yeah........it really is.... <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Sage Hazzard]

I'll be the weird guy in the corner. You'll regonize me because I'll probably be organizing a heaven Star Wars fanclub. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

Go ahead and cry Xazor, it helps. Just remember to smile every once and awhile when remembering the good times. He'll be with you, looking over your shoulder. Just call his name and I bet you you'll get a warm fuzzy feeling. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

Hey, I look forward to seeing you all while we're living too! It'll happen. When I get enough money, and get older, I'll have like, a big roadtrip. Hey, Marcus, if I come Down Under you better take me for a ride in one of those nifty cars!! <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

I hope you start feeling better Xazor. The lingering pain might never go away, but it will be replaced slowly with a good memory of your friend. It'll be like he went on vacation and soon enough you'll go on vacation too. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Xazor]

Thank you Sage........your words are especially heart-warming. Yes...when I call his name, I do get a warm feeling in my heart...and I know he is with me. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> It still hurts, though...but soon enough, that will lessen also. All in time, right? <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> Yeah, I think we will all be the weird ones in the corners with SW fan clubs and such. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> That would be a cool thing.... Thank you again for your kind thoughts....