As I walk, the ground shatters below my feet................

[Xazor]

It was a cool, crisp evening as Xazor made her way to the bar and grill. She glanced up at the darkening sky as millions of stars appeared. They looked like tiny jewels on a large piece of black velvet. She sighed as she reached the guards at the door and began to remove her weapons. She placed her saber and blaster in a holding bin as usual. She then untied a sword from her back. It was silver and specks of blue shimmered as she removed it from it's place on her back. It was long with a wide, flat blade........and on the blade was engraved a name, "Chase". On the underside of the blade was a saying that once belonged to the one that gave her this sword, "Pain is weakness leaving the body", it read. This was now her life's motto. She gently handed it to the guard.

Please be careful with it........it's one of a kind........

She said this as she passed through the door of the bar. Looking around for familiar faces, she made her way to the back corner. She took a seat and made her home among the shadows as a droid came and requested her order.

I'll just have a glass of wa.......I'll have a bottle of your best Red Wine.........

She looked down at the table and sighed as she said this. This day had not been an easy one to get through and she was glad it was almost night. She sat alone with her thoughts as she heard the laughter and conversation of those around her. They sounded so happy to her.........and she wished she could share their joy..........but she could not. Not today, anyway.............She quietly laid her head down on the table and a few tears escaped from her blue eyes and cascaded down her cheeks. She wiped them away, and brushed her blond hair out of her face at the same time. She sat up for a moment and straightened her dark blue robes and then laid her head back on the table. A few more tears fell from her eyes, but she did nothing about them this time. It was the hour of mourning now.......and there was nothing she could do about her feelings.

[Dasquian Belargic]

A hand fell on Xazor's shoulder and from above a calm yet concerned voice spoke.

"Is there something amatter, Xazor?"

[Xazor]

Xazor felt the gentle hand on her shoulder and then heard the voice of her friend Dasquian. She wiped the tears from her eyes and sat up. She looked at his kind face and smiled.

I'm just haviing a rough day.........I'll be fine............

She knew this wasn't true.......she would never be fine. She sniffled a bit and looked at the table. There was a small puddle of tears left over, which she quickly wiped away with the sleeve of her robe.

Would you like to join me? Maybe conversation will help........

She said with a weak smile and motioned to the empty seat.

[Satine Capashen]

"Mind if I join you? You look like you could use a friend..."

Satine sits in an empty chair, and smiles kindly at her.

"What'samatter?"

[Dasquian Belargic]

Dasquian took a seat by Xazor, acknowledging Satines presence with a silent nod. He looked to his friend and sighed a bit, nodding to her also.

"Is there anything you would like to talk about?"

He could sense something was wrong, and really did want to help - but of course he only could if she was willing.

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded.

Go ahead........the more the merrier.........I guess..........

She said with a sigh. He sat down in an empty chair and Dasquian followed. Xazor shook her head. She didn't think she could speak the words that were so heavy on her heart.

It is such a long story..........I wish not to bring you down with my sad tale.........

She said quietly. A few tears escaped as she thought about it. She knew that she would have to talk about it..............or it would become physically harmful for her to keep it in much longer.

[Xazor]

Her friends grew silent as she said this, so she spoke.

I was in love once......

She said quietly. She paused for a moment and continued.

We were to be married.............but then the Sith killed him.........

Xazor took a breath. She had left out basically the whole story.....but those two facts were a good start.

[Dasquian Belargic]

He sighed once more and patted Xazor lightly on the shoulder, offering a comforting half-smile.

"I'm very sorry to hear that ... my condolences."

He then leant back slightly in his chair. He could not really sympathize with her as he had never been in love, and doubted he ever would be - it was against the principals he had learnt as a padawan; love lead to the darkside.

[Sia Lan Darkheart]

Sia sat in a shadows booth off to one side. She had overheard Xazor talking to the two other jedi. Sia knew parts of Xazor story. Sia lowered her head as she listened to her.

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded.

Thank you, friend.

She said in almost a whisper. She then looked back at the table before continuing.

In a way, though, his death set me free. I was once a Sith, and he was at the time. We were to marry a year ago this very day........but he was killed three days before hand. I was devistated, and it greatly affected my training........my Master whipped me when he found me crying. If I had married him....I would have been locked in as a Sith.........never to escape to the light.

She was leaving out major pieces of the story.......but they would be told soon enough.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine's eyes glance at the necklace Xazor was wearing--a present from himself, actually--and he remembers Iyza for that second, before looking up, and listening to the rest of what she says. He somehow knew she was leaving something else out, and cocks an eyebrow up.

"Forgive me for sounding rude, my friend...but...What is the parts you're leaving out?"

[Xazor]

Xazor gave him a half smile as he glanced at the necklace he had given her. At his question, she looked down at the ring on his finger. It was also a gift to him from herself...........but it had once been given to her by Chase.

I would have been locked in as a Sith for he was a prince in the empire. He knew I wanted out, though, so he was going to help me escape. Once the others learned of our plan, they killed him. As he laid their in his blood, he told me he wanted me to become a Jedi.........to fall in love.......and to remember his love but not dwell on my loss. He then gave me his most prized posession.......his battle sword. He told me to never forget the happy times we shared..........he said he loved me.........and then he was gone.........

She started to cry again as she said these things.

[Satine Capashen]

I'm sorry for your loss Xazor..." Satine says, walking around, and giving his friend a hug. "And remember, you need to talk, I'm here. I know how it feels to lose someone."

Satine manages a small smile, hoping to cheer up Xazor a bit.

[Dasquian Belargic]

Though he may not have ever experienced love, he had lost his whole family - except his brother - thanks to the darkside. A stinging pained his chest as he thought about it, but in the end only good would come of it. If he hadn't lost them, he would never be here now, he would have never woken up in a time far from his own and had the chance to help more people and be with his family. In the end, helping was more important.

"Yes of course, if you ever need someone to talk to about it you can always count on one of us to be there for you."

[Xazor]

Xazor wiped her tears away and nodded with a weak smile.

Thank you........thank you so much.......

She said in a soft voice.

[Satine Capashen]

"You're welcome. I mean, isn't that what friends do for friends? Comfort each other when they need it?"

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded and smiled.

Yes.........that is what friends do. I thank you for letting me offload a piece of my heart onto your own problems. It is not often that people listen anymore. It is hard to find friends such as you.

She said looking to both of them. She smiled again and wiped the remaining tears away. To say she felt better was an understatement. She now realized exactly what Chase had done for her......and she was eternally grateful to him. She knew that he wanted her to be happy.......and to love again.........

[Satine Capashen]

"The feeling is mutual Xazor. Earlier you helped me out when I was really depressed over Iyza. Now it's my turn to help you."

[Xazor]

She smiled and nodded to him.

It is funny and strange at the same time how much you and I have in common..........

She said this to him through the Force as she pondered it for a moment. It was strange.....they've been through a lot of the same situations.......the same battles.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine could guess what Xazor was thinking and smiles.

The same battles, but did you have them all in the first 14 years of your life? Other than that, we ARE remarkable alike...Strange, h

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded as she continued thinking.

I've had all of my trials and battles since I can remember...........until now.........that's all that I remember...........pain, suffering, and overcoming battles that faced me everyday when I woke up. One of those such battles happened to be that man I called Master........but that's all gone and done now. Now we must live life in the present, not in the past. It is good to not forget how you began and where you come from.................but I have found it devestating to dwell upon.............

She said to him through the Force. It was strangely remarkable how much they had in common........it was too[/b] strange almost...........she pondered deeper into it as she sat there.....

[Satine Capashen]

I've just noticed lately how dangerous it is to dwell on the past...Visiting it is all well and good, but living in it is deadly...

[Xazor]

Yeah.........tell me about it!

She gave him a half smile as she spoke through the Force.

[Satine Capashen]

But look at you now! You are gaining strength because of your realization. Pretty soon, no Sith would want to insult you, for fear of your reaction.

[Xazor]

She gave a slight laugh. If she was ever having a low point in life, he seemed to know exactly what to say to lift her spirits in an instant.

I'd have to say the same about you. You're a warrior, and a pretty good one, I might say. I know that the Sith cower when you're around!

She said to him with a smile.

[Satine Capashen]

Actually, first they laugh at a "pitiful" 14 year old. Then we I beat on them they get a respect for me...Until I open my mouth and say some cocky thing...

[Xazor]

She smiled and patted him on the back.

I've run into the same problem several times...........I have a problem with cockiness........and what is even worse is that my Master caught me doing it too. I got cocky around him and he knocked me back in line quickly.

She said with a smile.

[Satine Capashen]

Ah...I never had a mastre. I was the official Mastreless padawan, and learned how to become a Knight again by myself, so my ego is still nice and healthy.

[Xazor]

She laughed again.

Masterless padawan? Sounds like something you could handle. Yeah, I'd say you're ego is healthy alright......

She was kidding of course and flashed him a sly smile as she said this.

[Satine Capashen]

You should see me when I win against a sith. You think it's big now...you haven't seen anyhthing yet! Satine grins one of those grins a fourteen year old does better than anyone. One that both showed happiness and egotism all in one.

[Xazor]

Xazor smiled at his happiness.

If you ever go on a mission with me...........I'm going to have to rent a ship! Something the size of a Star Destroyer..............my little X-Wing isn't big enough for both of us and your ego!!

She laughed heartily for a few moments and saw the look on his face and stopped. She couldn't help it and started to laugh uncontrollably again.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine laughs too, and replies.

We can always use my little Nova Destroyer...Should be big enough...Might be a tight squeeze though!

[Xazor]

Xazor laughs uncontrollably and nearly falls to the ground.

That's a safe bet! It is probably pretty accurate!

The laughing continued. She had never really laughed before.........not like this. She was actually in a state of pure joy.

I don't know, though, with the ego I'm building quickly...........neither of us would fit after our egos got in there!

Her sides were splitting now, as she laughed hard. This type of joy must have been trying to make up for the loss of many years worth..........all at once. It was quite a sight to see......

[Satine Capashen]

Satine laughs, feeling as though his sides would split, and wipes a tear from his eye.

Your ego would just be beaten under by mine though! I mean, I have more experience with it!

[Xazor]

That is very evident!

She said through laughing.

[Satine Capashen]

Oh? It's that obvious?

[Xazor]

Oh........just a little bit!

She continued laughing. Her stomach and sides hurt from it......but she didn't care.......in a way, it felt good.

[Satine Capashen]

Than I need to change it Satine sends back, even his Force speech colored with amusement.

[Xazor]

Xazor smiles as he says this.

No.......you're fine. Don't change who you are..........

She continued laughing, although she was serious about it.

[Satine Capashen]

Ah....Wait till you see me in an ego trip and you'll change your mind Satine gives a small chuckle, desperate for a rest, and takes a sip of his drink.

[Xazor]

Xazor looks down at the table with a slight smile. She too needed a little break, or she would break! She took a sip of the red wine in her glass.

Would you like some? I doubt that I will drink it all by myself. I didn't really want to get it.......but I did because that was what Chase and I drank the first time we met...............it's okay though, we'll enjoy it now in celebration that we are free from the darkness!

She smiled now, as she spoke of him.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine smiles.

"I'll toast to that!"

And he takes the glass offered to him with a polite nod, and then raises it in toast. As the clink their glasses, Satine smiles comfortably, and takes a sip of the stuff.

[Xazor]

ooc: Of the stuff? LOL, that just sounds really funny, I had to mention it! ;)

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Taking a sip of her glass, she sets it back down on the table. She smiles at her friend. Everyone in the bar was happy, and laughing...............and now she was too. It was so good to have that........it was truly a gift to her.

[Satine Capashen]

{OOC<img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/laugh.gif ALT=":lol"> . I guess that did sound somewhat odd from me. But every once in a while I put something like that. <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)"> }

Satine leans back in his chair, putting his glass back on the table, and smiles.

"Can I ask you something? Why do you call me 'brother'? I'm flattered, it's just that I'm curious. I've never had much of a family before, and I was curious why you added me to yours..."

[Xazor]

Xazor smiles widely as he asks this.

Because we are linked through the Force. We share such a strong bond, that calling you anything less would be unnatural to me. I never had a real family.........all I had was a Sith Master, who considered himself my father. I have never experienced a relationship like this. So to me..........you're my brother.....

She sighed as she said this. She had never known a family, and he seemed even closer than a real brother. Their was something strange about them. Coincidentally, they happened to have everything in common, and their personalities were almost identical. She smiled as she t

[Satine Capashen]

"and I'm beginning to call you sister too. You're right. We are alot alike...Aside form our elements of choice, of course..."

[Xazor]

She smiled at his observations and gave a slight laugh.

We might as well be biologically linked...............

She paused for a moment and thought about what she had just said. No.........that's impossible.... She thought to herself and let the thought leave her mind. She took another sip of her drink and set it back on the table.

[Satine Capashen]

"Yeah, that's pretty much impossible. I don't think I actually had a sister. Even if I did, Seyester probably killed her too..."

[Xazor]

She nods at his words. She didn't know anything of any family she ever had.

Yeah.......................I guess you're right...................I don't even know if my parents lived after Kama took me from them................if so, I don't know if I have any siblings..........

She spoke in almost a helpless tone.

[Satine Capashen]

"One of thses days we're gonna have to go out and look for our families..."

{OOC:I'm off for today. See ya later Xazor!}

[Xazor]

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Xazor nodded and smiled.

That sounds like a good idea..............you never know what you might find..........

She let the words hang in the air as she spoke them.

[Satine Capashen]

"And we might find stuff we never thought possible before..." Satine says, his eyes glazing over as he thinks back to when him ang Graem went to find Seyester.

[Xazor]

Very true...........

She could see a change in his eyes immediatly as they spoke of this.

Are you alright?

She asked him curiously.

[Satine Capashen]

"Huh? Oh, yes. I'm fine. I was just thinking back to when I finally found out who killed my parents. Graem D Snowbringer--one of my closest friends, aside form you--and I tracked Seyester down, and we found out about the massacre of Kirin Taq, and how he killed Graem's own parents. It was...unsettling...to say the least."

[Xazor]

Xazor listened intently as he spoke.

Those names are familiar to me....................but I cannot recall where I have heard them..........

She pondered this to herself as she sat there. Digging through all of the information stored in her mind, she could not think of it. She shook her head and thought some more.

[Satine Capashen]

"Maybe this will help.."

Satine closes his eyes, and finds an image of both of them in his mind. Opening up to the Force, Satine sends them into Xazor's mind.

"Look familier?"

[Xazor]

At the shocking sight of both of them, she quickly blocked the images from her mind. Her heart was racing and she quickly opened her eyes. She broke into a cold sweat and her breathing quickened. Their faces were all to familiar, but she lied to him so he wouldn't know.

Ah...........nope, never seen them before in my life...........

She was a bad liar, and he could tell what she was really thinking.

[Satine Capashen]

"Sis, first off: IF you're gonna lie, I need to teach you how to do it right. And second. You really do know them, don't you? Seyester is, last time I looked, dead--unless he bugged out on us--and Graem...There is no way Graem could be evil. She's a friend."

[Xazor]

Xazor looked at the table in shame. She nodded to her friend and gave a weak smile.

It was that bad, huh?

She asked in reference to her lying. She had never been a good liar..........that's what got her in a lot of scrapes with her Sith Master. She sighed as he spoke of the images she saw in her mind. It seemed so real, yet a dream all at the same time.

[Satine Capashen]

"It was pretty bad. You need to at least manage to keep your voice even. It sorta squeaked a bit as you lied..."

[Xazor]

Xazor laughed to herself as he pointed out her mistakes.

I guess that is good advice........

She said softly.

[Satine Capashen]

"Yes...Though JEdi aren't supposed to lie..." <img src=http://www.ezboard.com/image/emoticons_classic/smile.gif ALT=":)">

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded. The truth was a nice freedom to possess now. She was not always allowed to speak it.

I know.......it comes in handy sometimes.........

She laughed lightly as she said this.

[Satine Capashen]

"Yes, it is useful..."

Satine says, chuckeling along with Xazor.

[Xazor]

It is nice to be aloowed to speak the truth..........

She added and became serious again.

[Satine Capashen]

"You mean you weren't before?"

[Xazor]

Xazor shook her head and sighed heavily.

I was not...........

She said softly.

Many scars have I............from telling the truth........

She finished in almost a whisper.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine winces in sympathy.

"I'm sorry I brought that up..."

[Xazor]

She shakes her head.

No........no, it's quite alright.........

She wipes an escaping tear from her eye as she recalls how many beatings and scarring events she had been through.......

[Satine Capashen]

"Yes, but that is obviously still a tender spot in your history..."

[Xazor]

She nodded.

My wounds still bleed and my bruises bring me pain...........

She spoke lightly. Obviously not referring to physical wounds, but those on her heart........

[Satine Capashen]

"I can relate. Though mine are duller than yours probably..."

[Xazor]

Xazor nods.

It is good to know that you understand how I feel...........

She says in a small voice.

[Satine Capashen]

"It's easy to understand how you feel when I've gone through some of the same things you have."

[Xazor]

Very true........

She said, trying to imagine him going through such trials. She takes a sip of her drink and sets the nearly empty glass back on the table with a sigh.

[Satine Capashen]

"You shoulda seen what Sorsha Kasajian put me through. she has been the source of most of my pain in the past few years..."

[Xazor]

I'm sorry........I have met her somewhere before.........

She said quietly.

[Satine Capashen]

"You have? Did you think of her as a psychotic bitch too? OR maybe that's just my opinion for some reason..."

Satine grins as he says this.

[Xazor]

Xazor grins as he speaks this of her.

I was thinking the exact same thing.......

She gave a slight laugh.

[Satine Capashen]

"Looks like she does give off that impression. When did you meet her?"

[Xazor]

I met her in the bar. Before I realized how she was, I offered my company......of course she refused. That is the only time I have met her. It was just the way she talked.........her aura gave off something strange about her......I can't describe it. I just.............feel things about people.........

She said with an unresolved sigh.

[Satine Capashen]

"You have that little gift...But as for her aura. She gives off a little menacing feeling. Along with being a complete psycho, she also enjoys torturing her enemies. I'm one of her favorite ones to "Play" with."

[Xazor]

Xazor gave a slight laugh.

I'm sorry........it's just the way you said it........

She tried not to smile or laugh.....but couldn't cover it up.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine realizes what he said, and begins to laugh too.

"You know what I mean..though that was funny..."

[Xazor]

Yeah, I do.....

She smiled as he laughed.


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[Satine Capashen]

{OOC: G'night sis!}

"Good. I thought I was the only one who had their minds in the gutter...but boy was I wrong. Or was yours just visiting for a while?"

[Xazor]

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Xazor laughed.

I'm a permanent resident.......

[Satine Capashen]

"Thought so. Join the club."

[Xazor]

Xazor laughed hard as he said this. No matter what Alpha said, it always came out funny some way or another.

So that means you too are a permanent resident of the gutter club?

She laughed again after saying this.

[Satine Capashen]

"Yup. I think I'm one of the president's of it."

[Xazor]

ooc: LOL, good one! ;)


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Xazor laughed hysterically as he said this. It had to be one of the funniest things she had ever heard.

Well, if you are president then I am..........presidentiss?

She felt like she could fall out of her chair and roll on the ground laughing.

[Satine Capashen]

{OOC:Thanx! <img src=http://www.thegjo.com/forum/smileys/biglaugh.gif ALT=":D"> }

Satine laughs loudly, and pounds the table top.

"I don't think that's even a word, but maybe!"

[Xazor]

Xazor laughed even louder now and covered her face for it had turned red from embarrassment.

Maybe not.........but it could happen!

She laughed at herself......it was stupid and funny all at the same time. She had never had this much fun in her life.

[Satine Capashen]

"Could happen. If not I'll nominate you for the position!"

[Xazor]

Xazor continued laughing hysterically.

You wouldn't have to, there would be no competition to try to take the position!

She said through side splitting laughter and tears.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine gasps in an effort to breathe as he laughs, and grins.

"Probably...Wonder if anyone else in this place could top us."

[Xazor]

Ceasing laughter for a moment, Xazor looks around at the crowd. Shaking her head, she starts to laugh again.

I doubt it, everyone looks pretty dead tonight!

She said through laughter again.

[Satine Capashen]

"Pretty much!"

Satine extends a hand, and out flies a fireball, which circles around the room, and then dissapates.

"Anyone alive in here?"

[Xazor]

A few faces look up at them with blank stares.....but no one responds.

I don't think so! With the way it looks in here, you'd think everyone was really old or something!

She laughed and held her stomach. It hurt badly from all of the laughing they had done, but she didn't care.....

[Satine Capashen]

Satine was feeling the same way, and then smiles as he realizes something.

"Ya know, you and me are basically a new breed of Young Ones."

At Xazor's confused expression Satine explains. "The Young Ones were a group two other Jedi and I started. We were a bunch of practical jokers, but really stood up for one another. We're basically the same."

[Xazor]

Xazor nodded and smiled brightly.

Yeah.....you're right....

She thought on this for a moment.

[Satine Capashen]

"I know...Now all we need is water ballons and we can wake this place up..."

Satine laughs at the thought.

[Xazor]

Hmm...........good idea........

She rubbed her hands together as an evil grin crawled across her face.

[Satine Capashen]

"Though just imagine what would happen when the Mastres get splattered..."

[Xazor]

That would not be a good thing........

She said, shaking her head.

[Satine Capashen]

"well...Some have senses of humor...Maybe we should see which ones..."

[Xazor]

She smiled and a sly grin crept across her face.

Yes.........that is a good idea.........

She laughed slightly as she looked around. Only a few masters were in the bar right now........but it would be a good test......

[Satine Capashen]

Satine smiles, and walks behind the bar, taking up some of the water balloons that are normally stashed there.

"You really wanna?"

[Xazor]

She grinned and nodded.

Absolutly.........

She said in a sly tone.

[Satine Capashen]

Satine floats half of the water balloons over to Xazor, and grins.

{OOC:Maybe we should start a new thread for the water balloon pelting...ya know, so most of the people can join in...}

[Xazor]

She took up a bunch of the the balloons in her harms and grinned at Alpha.

Let's do it.....

She said in a quiet and low voice.


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