Just another day......

[Xazor]

Xazor walks into the bar and looks around for familiar faces. Seeing a few, she walks to her usual spot in the shadows at the back of the bar. Sitting down, she steeples her fingers and a smile plays on her lips as she listens to the melodious conversations around her. Her blonde hair fell gently around her face and reached to her waist. She was clad in her usual red Jedi robes but her hood was down. She leaned against the wall and looked around. The silver specks in her blue eyes caught the light that escaped to the darkness. A group of people left and as soon as they did, another entered. There were a few faces in the crowd she did not know.......she hoped that she would meet someone knew and maybe make a new friend.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: Soolin sits at a nearby table with Grimya at her side. It had been along time since she had been among any Jedi, but she was still an outsider here ::

[Xazor]

As Xazor looks around, she spots a woman who is joined by a beautiful companion....a wolf. Xazor once had a wolf as her beloved pet and best friend.....but he had been killed. Xazor's heart sank as she thought about him. Poor poor Kai.... She thought to herself. Trying to forget about the past, she rose from her seat and approached the woman. With a slight bow and smile, she spoke.

Greetings....my name is Xazor Kama and I am a padawan here. I am assuming you are a Jedi also by the aura that surrounds you. Who is your beautiful companion?

She asks with curiosity.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: rises and grips Xazor's arm in a warrior's handshake ::

"I am Soolin Anjhurin."

:: she smiles as she looks at the she-wolf ::

"This is Grimya."

:: sits back down and invites the padawan to join her ::

[Xazor]

Xazor smiles as she too grips the woman's arm in a warrior greeting.

It is nice to meet you, Soolin.

She said with a smile as she took the empty seat at the woman's table. She looked at the wolf that accompanied Soolin, a beautiful creature she was.

Grimya....what a beautiful creature.

She said softly as she admired the she-wolf.

[Grimya]

:: Xazor feels a warmth as the white wolf reaches out and touches her mind. The animal had understood her words, and at that moment Xazor realizes that Grimya was far more than what she appeared to be. The wolf was force sensitive ::

[Xazor]

Xazor smiles as she feels Grimya's presence in her mind. The wolf was Force sensitive too....it was amazing. About a month ago, Xazor had returned to her home planet in search of reasons for the death of her beloved wolf's death. Instead of answers, she had found his brother. He was deaf, but Force sensitive. He learned things quickly and picked up on sign language for commands.

I too have a wolf companion. His name is Kaukauna. He is the brother of my deceast companion wolf.

She went on to explain his deaf-ness, Force sensibility, and his abilities to understand sign language. Xazor thought this common bond between she and Soolin was really neat.....

[Soolin Anjhurin]

"Really? Where did you find him?"

[Xazor]

Back on my home planet, Cysaria. I went back to find answers for some happenings in my past.....and I came upon him. It was a wonderful surprise.

She smiled gently as she recalled the tedious mission.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: Cysaria. Soolin's conciousness spirals into a red haze as the walls of the bar & grill melt away into the nightmare vision. In her mind's eye, she was there again, witnessing the massacre of her fellow on the battlefield.

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She could see the horde of black scaled Sith that rode upon reptilian steeds, and the Vornskrs that devoured the fallen upon the field with insatiable hunger. Then there was Devil that led them. His eyes burning into her soul with lust ::

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:: Soolin rips herself away from the vision, her scream a mix of rage and terror as she snaps back to reality with a wild look in her eyes ::

[Xazor]

Xazor looked questioning at Soolin.

Are you......okay......?

She asked cautiously. She sure did not look alright to Xazor.......had she said something wrong? She hoped that she had not.....

[Soolin Anjhurin]

"I've been to your homeworld, Xazor. Five cycles ago."

:: she pauses, gripping the white wolf's fur for comfort ::

"My order fought there against the Sith. It was their last crusade."

[Xazor]

Xazor rubbed her left shoulder slightly as Soolin said this. She looked down for a moment, trying to avoid eye contact with the woman.....until her eyes slowly drifted back to meet hers.

The Great Defeat.........is this what you speak of? The year full of killing.......?

She took off her cloak, revealing her sleeveless robes. You could clearly see many scars on her arms.....and on her left shoulder was a tattoo, given to her by her Sith Master.

It's the Mark of the Most High.........it was given to me because I.......

She paused in her words........afraid of what Soolin would say if she finished. She lowered her voice and spoke them quietly.....

Because I killed the most people in the battle........

She said softly.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: Soolin stares at the mark, her face a clear reflection of the emotions that swirled inside of her. For the last fives cycles, she has lived as a Ronin Jedi. All her clan had been massacred, and now she sat at the same table with one of the killers. How could this be??? ::

[Xazor]

Xazor could perfectly read the expression that was on Soolin's face. She sighed and shamefully looked down at the table top. Her eyes slowly rose to meet those of the woman, as she recalled the great battle in her mind. She had once crossed paths with the one she now sat with...

I almost...slayed you...

She said dryly. It was true...and by pure accident that she had not. A flash back came into play in Xazor's mind. There was a flash of black and silver, then red, as she sliced through Jedi after Jedi....and then, she came to one who was standing there, so serenly. Xazor raised her sword but fell over a dead body and hit the ground before she got the chance to slay the woman. When she rose to her feet........the woman was gone. Xazor's eyes opened widely as she came out of the memory. She was breathing hard and sweat had accumulated on her forehead.

I am not that way anymore, honestly!

She exclaimed to her friend.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

"Nothing ..."

:: Soolin swallows hard, shaking as she looks Xazor in the eye ::

" ... nothing is ever forgotten."

[Xazor]

I....I'm sorry....I changed, I ch...

She could see that Soolin was effected beyond belief. Xazor lowered her head and tried to divert her attention to others around the bar. The silence grew between them and the air felt terribly awkward.




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[Soolin Anjhurin]

"LOOK AT ME!!!"

:: Soolin grabs Xazor by the wrist. She could feel the eyes in the bar focused on her as she shook with rage ::

"MY BROTHER IS DEAD!!! MY JEDI CLAN IS DEAD!!! DO THEY KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY ARE???!!! HAVE YOU TOLD THEM THE WHOLE TRUTH???!!! TELL THEM ABOUT THE ONES YOU MURDERED!!! ALL OF THEM, XAZOR!!! ALL OF THEM!!!!!!"

[Xazor]

Xazor was extremely shocked but let Soolin speak what she wished. She looked right into the woman's eyes as a few tears welled up in her own.

Yes...they know who and what I was. I know your brother is dead...I know your clan is dead....I know that many died. It wasn't supposed to be that way. We were supposed to only kill a few of the most powerful Jedi....but it ended up being a killing spree. I am sorry about that Soolin...I am different now. I cannot replace what you have lost....I cannot even apologize enough.

Now the tears that had been damed up, came out. They spilled onto her cheeks and ran down her face to kiss the table top like the dew on the flowers in the morning. Soolin wasn't letting up on her wrist and this made Xazor upset, unlike she was before.

YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH! I WAS A KILLER! I KILLED MANY PEOPLE OKAY? THAT IS HOW IT USED TO BE BUT IT ISN'T ANYMORE! I AM A JEDI AND THIS IS MY TRUE PATH!

She quieted her voice as she noticed most of the whole bar had their eyes on the two. She sighed slightly, Soolin had a death grip on her wrist...but she understood...she more than understood....

[Navaria Tarkin]

Navaria came up behind Soolin and placed a hand on her friend's. She had noticed her talking to Xazor and didn't want to interrupt because they were getting to know each other.

She wasn't sure what triggered it, but now it turned into an argument and that was not good...

"Soolin. You need to let her go and calm yourself."

Her eyes shifted to Xazor.

"And you need to as well. This isn't going to solve anything or bring anyone back ..."

Hopefully the soft tone in her voice to the truth she spoke and her mere presence would diffuse the situation.

[Xazor]

Xazor didn't give Soolin time to let go, she ripped her wrist out of her hand and crossed her arms over her chest.

Thank you Navaria....the situation is a little......tense you could say.

She relayed to her friend through the Force.

[Soolin Anjhurin]

"I cannot forgive what she is, Navaria. Don't ask me to."

[Navaria Tarkin]

And you lost your temper as well, Xazor. Anger does not become a Jedi.

Understanding was seen in Navaria's eyes as she spoke to Soolin.

"I would never ask that, but you must accept that she is a Jedi now. If not, then I fear for you, my friend."

[Xazor]

I know I lost my temper. I am sorry for that.....

She said with sincerity. She had not became angry for a long time...it was something that was difficult for her....

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: Soolin narrows her eyes at Xazor and turns away, unable to bear the sight of her another moment. She looks around at all the other Jedi, then at Navaria ::

"I'll take my leave in the morning."

:: calls to Grimya and heads back to her ship ::

[Xazor]

Wait! Soolin no don't le......

Xazor called after her with an outstretched arm. She rose from her seat and ran toward the door.....but it was too late. The Jedi Knight fell to her knees and wept, right there in the bar. Her head fell into her hands and she covered her eyes as she cried her heart out. Someone had just broken her.....unwilling to accept the change she had made. It crushed Xazor's heart and she felt that she was unable to handle it......she didn't know what she would do now. Surly the other members of the Order would be greatly upset with her....

[Navaria Tarkin]

Navaria thought back on what was yelled back and forth between the two; trying to bring out specifially what was said as she watched Soolin leave.

It hit her hard and she winced at the powerful emotions.

"MY BROTHER IS DEAD!!! MY JEDI CLAN IS DEAD!!! DO THEY KNOW WHAT YOU REALLY ARE???!!! HAVE YOU TOLD THEM THE WHOLE TRUTH???!!! TELL THEM ABOUT THE ONES YOU MURDERED!!! ALL OF THEM, XAZOR!!! ALL OF THEM!!!!!!"

"YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH! I WAS A KILLER! I KILLED MANY PEOPLE OKAY? THAT IS HOW IT USED TO BE BUT IT ISN'T ANYMORE! I AM A JEDI AND THIS IS MY TRUE PATH!"

Then it stopped. Everything was calm again.

The Knight looked to Xazor with a stern gaze.

"I suggest that you meditate and purge yourself of this anger. This is the second time you have had an outburst of anger."

Her blue eyes narrowed.

"Maybe the Council should have heeded Anbira's words more carefully about you. You are still a young Knight but these outburst will lead you down the wrong path."

She left it at that and turned to leave, pausing briefly.

"The past is the past Xazor but it always finds a way of catching up to you. Trust me ... I know."

[Xazor]

Xazor couldn't believe the words that Navaria spoke. This brought forth even more tears as she rose to her feet. Soolin had taken out the past on the present.....how was she supposed to react? Her heart ached as she gathered her weapons and fled, without a word. Things were differnt now.....and she would end up in trouble again. It seemed that no matter what she did, it was either never good enough.....or it was wrong. She made her way to the living quarters, stumbling as she went for lack of vision from the tears. She finally reached the large door of the complex and collapsed against it, then opened it slowly. Once inside, she made her way to her room and then locked the door.......she would stay in there for a while.......a day or so, and not come out. She felt totally worthless. She took out her sword and laid it on the bed, then collapsed on the floor in a sob....