OOC - Sleepless Night

[Soolin Anjhurin]

You know, I was up all night thinking about my future with Role-Playing here. The recent events have really bummed me out. Reading that thread and all the things that were said in it about me and my buds in Irentios. It made me sick. It was ugly, and it was hurtful, and it made me think seriously about continuing with RPing. I thought about retiring Sorsha Kasajian, and maybe even killing her off because of it. Yes, that's how depressed I am over this whole thing. Killing off a character I've fought so hard to build up to where she is now.

Well I'm not going to do it. Not after all the clawing and fighting and tearing I've gone through to make this character what she is. It would be like doing certain people a favor.

I really don't mean to get into a big rant, but it's boiling inside me, making me feel kinda sick about the way things have turned out.

I want to apologize to everyone who's currently in a thread with Sorsha. I feel like I've let you done and I'm trying to get myself back into a mindset where I can get things rolling again. I'm going to try to post in each of those threads today and hopefully I'll start feeling better again.

This may sound kinda funny, but it's not so easy playing a villain.

Okay I'll shut up now.

:: creeps away feeling kinda stupid for posting this at all ::

[Soolin Anjhurin]

:: creeps back in feeling a little bit better ::

I think I'll just take it easy and get back to posting again with my characters after Easter. I realy need to rest my mind and not worry about any of this anymore. I just want to get back to having fun again.

The thing I've decided to do is to gradually phase in Soolin as my Primary Character, and bring out Sorsha for RPing by personal request only. I think that'll keep things fresh for me creativley.

I've had alot of fun with being a bad guy, but I've been in that mode for so long and played it at such an intense level that I've almost burned out several times along the way. I've reached the point where I need some diversity and that's why I created Soolin. To give Sorsha the rest she needs and to keep things fresh in my mind.

[Navaria Tarkin]

:: hugs the Katchen ::

^_^

[Estelle Russard]

: : creeps back in feeling a little bit better ::


lol, Kat, that was cute.

[Anbira Hicchoru]

I've looked up to you for a long time, because you RP probably the only "truly evil" character I can think of at SWFans, and man, that is hard to do.

I've tried to follow in your footsteps with Darth Vader, but there's only so much I can do. You never cease to amaze me, in what you can do with 2 sentences that would take somebody else two paragraphs to convey. You keep true Roleplaying alive, and even though folks like me like to write long-windedly, I think we've all got a lot to learn from the way you do things.

The biggest of all Kudos to you, Kitty-Kitty.

[Satine Capashen]

Here, here Anbira!

And Kitty, it's ok if you want to take a few breaks every now and then. I've done it before with less notice then you have! <img src=http://www.thegjo.com/forum/smileys/biglaugh.gif ALT=":D">

[Soolin Anjhurin]

Thanks Charley, but I'm really not that special. The only thing that makes me different from other peeps is that I'm more into acting than writing. RP on the boards is my weakest area. I do much better in a LARP environment.

And I'll ALWAYS give notice to peeps I'm RPing with if I'm not gonna be around. It's unfair to leave people just hanging without a word and I never want to do that.

I'm feeling much better this morning and I'm summoning up the courage to do a bit of posting today as Soolin.