Captain Untouchable
Mar 7th, 2013, 06:08:47 PM
I don't want to be melodramatic (for a change :uhoh), but this is something that is probably going to leave a lot of people in the lurch, so I felt I owed it to you all to give you a proper explanation.
You all know that I'm kind of ill right now, but I've mostly been too proud to go into any specifics about it. The doctors aren't really sure what it is: what matters is that it's having a pretty adverse affect on my physically and mentally. Between the symptoms and the impact they've been having on my sleep, my brain power has been steadily declining over the last few years. It's been quite a while since I have been able to read books, and it's now reaching the point where even reading posts is a struggle. For someone who studied astrophysics but now has to count up on his fingers, it's all pretty frustrating.
It's also reached the point where writing posts is much harder. You've probably noticed that I've been getting quite pushy on spurring up activity lately. The reason is that I'm desperate to keep exercising the writing part of my brain: posts that would have taken me minutes in the past are now taking agonising hours, and if I spend too long without writing I'm worried that I won't be able to start up again.
However, it's reaching the point where my desire to keep writing at all costs is adversely impacting other people: and I can't stand for that behaviour in myself. I think it's best (for myself as much as for anyone else) for me to hang up my keyboard for the foreseeable future. Maybe I'll be better in a matter of months, or I could be like this indefinitely: there's no way for me to know, and I can't in good conscience screw you guys over like that.
I have my fingers in a lot of pies, so it's not like I can scurry off into the night without having an impact. Where I can - with your help - I'll try and tie up loose ends and scurry off gracefully. This is not an impulse decision, so please don't think that: it is however a rather unpleasant one for me bearing in mind how big a part of my life roleplaying here has been for such a long time, so you'll have to forgive me for making a big deal out of it.
For Star Wars -
I know that the Dan/s'Il situation is something I'm quite heavily entrenched in, so if you guys are willing to be patient with me, I'll try and muscle my way through to the end of that arc so that Vansen can fly away from the Wheel into obscurity without too much muss or fuss. I'm sure I can probably do something similar with the Vanguards arc: I'm sure Charley can help me cook up something suitably exit-worthy for my characters there. There are a few characters that I'm kind of possessive of, but if anyone wants to take characters off my hands to minimise the disruption (be that now, or at any point in the future), the worst I can do is say no. If anyone wants anything finished off, please hit me up ASAP so that I can get it done before I can't.
For Mutants -
I wasn't planning anything between now and the riots anyway, and that seems like a suitable place for most of my characters to start getting lost. I'm really sorry to Droo and Vince in particular on this front: if you guys (or anyone else) want to try and soldier through threads we had planned just so that they're done and on record, I'm happy to try. I'm much less attached to my Mutants characters in general, so if people want my stuff feel free to ask for it.
For DC -
I got way too heavily involved in this which was really stupid of me, all things considered. That said, interest has been steadily waning on this, so I guess I can take some solace in the fact that it probably would've fizzled out with or without me anyway. If there's a surge in activity, and my horde of characters is needed... see above.
I'm not out for sympathy, so please don't give me any - I'm so frugal with the details of this to avoid that kind of thing, and in all honesty it makes me feel ridiculously uncomfortable and guilty. If there are things you want to finish or characters you want to appropriate, chime in.
If not... hush up, else I'll fall back on my default threat and mail bees to your house. :shakefist
You all know that I'm kind of ill right now, but I've mostly been too proud to go into any specifics about it. The doctors aren't really sure what it is: what matters is that it's having a pretty adverse affect on my physically and mentally. Between the symptoms and the impact they've been having on my sleep, my brain power has been steadily declining over the last few years. It's been quite a while since I have been able to read books, and it's now reaching the point where even reading posts is a struggle. For someone who studied astrophysics but now has to count up on his fingers, it's all pretty frustrating.
It's also reached the point where writing posts is much harder. You've probably noticed that I've been getting quite pushy on spurring up activity lately. The reason is that I'm desperate to keep exercising the writing part of my brain: posts that would have taken me minutes in the past are now taking agonising hours, and if I spend too long without writing I'm worried that I won't be able to start up again.
However, it's reaching the point where my desire to keep writing at all costs is adversely impacting other people: and I can't stand for that behaviour in myself. I think it's best (for myself as much as for anyone else) for me to hang up my keyboard for the foreseeable future. Maybe I'll be better in a matter of months, or I could be like this indefinitely: there's no way for me to know, and I can't in good conscience screw you guys over like that.
I have my fingers in a lot of pies, so it's not like I can scurry off into the night without having an impact. Where I can - with your help - I'll try and tie up loose ends and scurry off gracefully. This is not an impulse decision, so please don't think that: it is however a rather unpleasant one for me bearing in mind how big a part of my life roleplaying here has been for such a long time, so you'll have to forgive me for making a big deal out of it.
For Star Wars -
I know that the Dan/s'Il situation is something I'm quite heavily entrenched in, so if you guys are willing to be patient with me, I'll try and muscle my way through to the end of that arc so that Vansen can fly away from the Wheel into obscurity without too much muss or fuss. I'm sure I can probably do something similar with the Vanguards arc: I'm sure Charley can help me cook up something suitably exit-worthy for my characters there. There are a few characters that I'm kind of possessive of, but if anyone wants to take characters off my hands to minimise the disruption (be that now, or at any point in the future), the worst I can do is say no. If anyone wants anything finished off, please hit me up ASAP so that I can get it done before I can't.
For Mutants -
I wasn't planning anything between now and the riots anyway, and that seems like a suitable place for most of my characters to start getting lost. I'm really sorry to Droo and Vince in particular on this front: if you guys (or anyone else) want to try and soldier through threads we had planned just so that they're done and on record, I'm happy to try. I'm much less attached to my Mutants characters in general, so if people want my stuff feel free to ask for it.
For DC -
I got way too heavily involved in this which was really stupid of me, all things considered. That said, interest has been steadily waning on this, so I guess I can take some solace in the fact that it probably would've fizzled out with or without me anyway. If there's a surge in activity, and my horde of characters is needed... see above.
I'm not out for sympathy, so please don't give me any - I'm so frugal with the details of this to avoid that kind of thing, and in all honesty it makes me feel ridiculously uncomfortable and guilty. If there are things you want to finish or characters you want to appropriate, chime in.
If not... hush up, else I'll fall back on my default threat and mail bees to your house. :shakefist