Cat Terrist
May 24th, 2005, 05:29:59 AM
Sorry about this being a totally stupid E/N type thread. But, I feel I need to at least say this once so I dont get questions on AIM. Generally, i dont like answering questions or talking E/N nonsense. Problems shoudlnt really be sort of thrown out in the open and really, I dont care about what happens to other people usually, so who cares about what happens to me?
That's why I decided many months ago to simply pull up stumps and leave. I had my own concerns, I had things I wanted to do, the reasons I gave to leave weren't the real ones. I simply gave a a cover and left. Why should anyone know what happens in my life? Sure, somethings I like being public about like my rallying, but that's got a degree of coolness that is interesting to people. But others, liek struggling to make ends meet and needing to concentrate on feelding myself and family... so what? who cares? we all face this. Why is my existance any more notible than anyone else's that it should be blazened across the Internet?
I truely only expected to come back breifly in the Box Office section then disappear forever. I really didnt intend to come back here. Unfortunantly, I find that I am back and not in circumstances I find exactly plesant.
Okay, my life sucks. really, really sucks. Not in a terminal disease type suck, but in a WTF, I just had my whole life tipped up and messed around. Much to my dismay and sadness, I'm single right now and I suspect deep down if I'm honest, things wont be fixed. It's over after 8 years of marrige. I cant believe it happened and I'm struggling to really work out WTF. I didnt see it coming. That's not to say there werent problems - there were but I didnt think they were this bad. That's all I'm going to tell anyone right now. Dont ask me more.
I want to write again, even if this is a passing pahse and when I feel less crap I go again, I dont know. I just want to write. No Jedi, no Lost, no nonsense. I want a nice complelling storyline to contribute to.
Oh, I suppose I could have just gone ahead and done it. True, but then i wouldnt be also doing the real reason I'm posting - thank you to those who have found out and have been a shoulder to whine on. It has been appreciated in what's a pretty deep and dark crap hole of a time in my life. Your good persons and I want to hang around, even if just for a little bit.
I apologise for the E/N nature of this post. But, even if you dont like it, it did make me feel better. I guess somethings need to be said, right?
That's why I decided many months ago to simply pull up stumps and leave. I had my own concerns, I had things I wanted to do, the reasons I gave to leave weren't the real ones. I simply gave a a cover and left. Why should anyone know what happens in my life? Sure, somethings I like being public about like my rallying, but that's got a degree of coolness that is interesting to people. But others, liek struggling to make ends meet and needing to concentrate on feelding myself and family... so what? who cares? we all face this. Why is my existance any more notible than anyone else's that it should be blazened across the Internet?
I truely only expected to come back breifly in the Box Office section then disappear forever. I really didnt intend to come back here. Unfortunantly, I find that I am back and not in circumstances I find exactly plesant.
Okay, my life sucks. really, really sucks. Not in a terminal disease type suck, but in a WTF, I just had my whole life tipped up and messed around. Much to my dismay and sadness, I'm single right now and I suspect deep down if I'm honest, things wont be fixed. It's over after 8 years of marrige. I cant believe it happened and I'm struggling to really work out WTF. I didnt see it coming. That's not to say there werent problems - there were but I didnt think they were this bad. That's all I'm going to tell anyone right now. Dont ask me more.
I want to write again, even if this is a passing pahse and when I feel less crap I go again, I dont know. I just want to write. No Jedi, no Lost, no nonsense. I want a nice complelling storyline to contribute to.
Oh, I suppose I could have just gone ahead and done it. True, but then i wouldnt be also doing the real reason I'm posting - thank you to those who have found out and have been a shoulder to whine on. It has been appreciated in what's a pretty deep and dark crap hole of a time in my life. Your good persons and I want to hang around, even if just for a little bit.
I apologise for the E/N nature of this post. But, even if you dont like it, it did make me feel better. I guess somethings need to be said, right?